Innocent Witch’s Blog

Well, just finished running the Sem 1 OSPE…. And is really tiring and also saddening… but at least i did my job and i’m proud at it as well….. is rather ugly but i rather keep this to myself….. ANyway, if anyone is wondering what is OSPE, OSPE is…. sorry i dunno what is the long name….. but is a practical exam for us where we have to perform a tast given by our examiner in 5 minutes…. normally there are 20 stations and each stations has a question on our skill and knowledge. Well, is rather scary for the first-timer as there are so many skills you got to know and cover as well… therefore, i think mock OSPE is a good practise for all of us…. But, of course, the bad side is the lots of bad impression, ridiculous perception and also idiots around me…. so, no big deal…. i can bear with it… short time more for me….

Well, can’t blog much, got to finish research proposal or else got zero for it……. HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Life is not fair….. that’s a famous proverb….. and i took 22 years to understand it deep down to my heart and feel with my flesh…. It really painful… as though my A delta fibers keep on sending sending impulses to my brain…. but, it is not as hurt as my heart when i realized i was betrayed by my own classmates…… well, my friends said once… when u come out to society, you must put on a mask, even a person hurt you, you must learn to smile and also don’t express my feeling…… But i don’t think i can do that to the maximun extend….. maybe a bit when i can control myself…. But, the main issues bout this thing is why would half of the class will hate me for something i didn’t do….. and why some people would want to hate me when i don’t even bother what heck and hell is the damm shit fellow doing???? i really don’t understand how should i react and how should i treat the friends that actually hate me for no damm reason???? for one thing, tear by tear keeps coming down my cheeks…. but, these tears are not for them but for me….. because crying is a therapy for me…. each tear that comes down from my eyes….. actually has a curative effect to my heart because it goes down from eyes to my heart….. and everytime i cry, my heart will undergo healing process….. it will heal as soon as possible….  but, everytime i see them, my heart feels as though it was stabbed deep down….. and talking to people who thinks this is nothing, it doesn’t help at all… i understand why they think like that because they been through it… and i haven’t been through it yet so, for me is a very difficult to handle it… expecially when they said i’m a very emotional person…. which i agree… but still, different person got different way of handling things…  Well, i don’t know what to do except to face the truth that life is not fair!!!!! i really got to face the fate……

any comment??? feel threatened with this blog….. face me and talk to me…. i dare you…..

Life is not fair….. that’s a famous proverb….. and i took 22 years to understand it deep down to my heart and feel with my flesh…. It really painful… as though my A delta fibers keep on sending sending impulses to my brain…. but, it is not as hurt as my heart when i realized i was betrayed by my own classmates…… well, my friends said once… when u come out to society, you must put on a mask, even a person hurt you, you must learn to smile and also don’t express my feeling…… But i don’t think i can do that to the maximun extend….. maybe a bit when i can control myself…. But, the main issues bout this thing is why would half of the class will hate me for something i didn’t do….. and why some people would want to hate me when i don’t even bother what heck and hell is the damm shit fellow doing???? i really don’t understand how should i react and how should i treat the friends that actually hate me for no damm reason???? for one thing, tear by tear keeps coming down my cheeks…. but, these tears are not for them but for me….. because crying is a therapy for me…. each tear that comes down from my eyes….. actually has a curative effect to my heart because it goes down from eyes to my heart….. and everytime i cry, my heart will undergo healing process….. it will heal as soon as possible….  but, everytime i see them, my heart feels as though it was stabbed deep down….. and talking to people who thinks this is nothing, it doesn’t help at all… i understand why they think like that because they been through it… and i haven’t been through it yet so, for me is a very difficult to handle it… expecially when they said i’m a very emotional person…. which i agree… but still, different person got different way of handling things…  Well, i don’t know what to do except to face the truth that life is not fair!!!!! i really got to face the fate……

any comment??? feel threatened with this blog….. face me and talk to me…. i dare you…..

I went out with with Jac and Wei Lan straight after i reached PeeJAy yesterday…. Yeah…. Met them, put on more fat… thanks to dolly madison in A&W….. however, it doesn;t matter… but, very happy cause got to learn so tricks from these two silly but superb ladies…. anyway, nice to see you guys… and hope tom we go swimming at 3K????? badminton??? forgot to bring racketla!!!!!!

i dunno what is called Life????

Can Life lives without friends???

CAn Life lives without truth????

Can life lives with hatred???

CAn a person hate another person and live with the person peacefully????

CAn i survive this time?????

CAn i??????

Arhhhh….. So Stress!!!!! Somemore have to do assignment on work stress… Ahhh… i definitely have the early sign of work stress…..

• headache….

• difficulty in sleeping…..

• lack of concentration….

• job dissatisfaction

• low morale

• bad temper….

These are the signs of stress… So, if you found yourself with these symptomps, please do something about it… If is prolonged stress, it will cause more disturbance to you, your life and people surronding you… is rather ugly…..

         If a person cannot meet the demand in work, the positive stress will turn into negative stress. Thus, the challenge has turned into job demands that cannot be met, relaxation has turned to exhaustion, and a sense of satisfaction has turned into feelings of stress. In short, the stage is set for illness, injury, and job failure

Well, finally receive a proper email from my big sis in England… She changed her job again.. and i’m so glad she finally can settle down already…. And hope she can come back soon because is been years since i meet her… can’t wait to see her chubby face that filled with buns, potatoes and steaks….
anyway, still struggling for assignments and also tests… but will go abck this week and see my beloved at home… and also try to get away fromt he sight of idiots in the college…. if you wanna know, there is lots of idiots and dumbos who make stupid accusation in the class that bring me misery and torture.. but, i happily go through it now… and at the same time make sure they regret for what they have done…. that’s my promise……
Life’s suck…but, that’s life……. isn’t it??????